Oh the joys of owning a laptop. I fell asleep last night literally on the keyboard of my laptop. When I woke up the touchpad didn’t seem to be working. I didn’t have time to mess with it this morning so I put my laptop in it’s bag and went to work. I came home from class tonight and spent a few minutes hanging out with my roommate then came upstairs. I tinkered around and nearly went into panic mode because I couldn’t figure out how to get the touchpad to work. An hour later…. I discovered a handy little button to the left of the power button specifically for enabling/disabling the touchpad.

…..right!

And thus begins my Thanksgiving break from school.. Heh…..

Sometimes it’s the simple things in life that are so rewarding. Right now I am laying down with two cats next to me, my laptop, and Grounded for Life on dvd. I feel relaxed and not so spaced out which is a nice change. I’m having such a hard time getting over the allergic reaction. My body really took a beating from that. My energy level is a bit shifty and I still don’t feel quite human. Makes for a not very fun me. I got home and spent a few minutes with my roommate tonight but couldn’t hang out for long. I felt bad for not being very sociable but when I don’t feel good I tend to become a loner. She bought me some Naked Juice which is like one of my favorite things to drink ever and offered to pick me up soup from the store. I have absolutely NO appetite. I hate that. I love food and when I’m not hungry for days like this it totally bums me out. I start to feel hungry but then ZAP. There it goes. I’ve been eating like one meal each day but nibbling on stuff to keep my sugar from dropping. Maybe I’ll lose some weight :\

Getting through the work day and school the day after dealing with allergic reactions to meds, the er, doctors, and being pumped full of meds is not fun. I was out of it yesterday but I felt even worse today. I was so spaced out at work. It was almost funny. I got through the day alright then went to class. Definitely wasn’t my best. I had a hard time staying focused. My body is going to take a while to get back to normal. Right now I’m just laying down and relaxing for a bit before I try new meds and hopefully get some sleep. Let’s not have another twitchy itchy night!

I’m a very severe insomniac and haven’t really gotten a natural night of sleep in years. I rely on medication whether it’s over the counter or prescription. I fell asleep shortly after taking my meds last night but woke through out the night itching all over. I woke up for work and noticed a bunch of bumps and scratches all over my arms and legs. This has not been a fun day. I had to miss yet another day of work, and I am still feeling doped up and groggy from the meds I had to take. I’m getting a different prescription tomorrow but tonight I’ll be sleeping w/o the sleeping meds. The generics usually work fine but sometimes they don’t work so well. My doctor is making a note on my file not to fill ‘scripts from this particular pharmaceutical anymore. Right now I feel hungry and shaky but have no desire or energy to go downstairs and get anything. Even though I’m hungry I don’t want to eat. I need to take a shower and get stuff ready for work tomorrow. I just feel horrible and have no energy to do anything. Bailey won’t stop meowing because he wants out. I’m not giving in. I want him inside tonight.

Ugh.

First off I hope you had a good weekend.

I got through last night better than I thought. I had a movie marathon night and just focused on NOT thinking about the night of the break in. I think I did ok. It’s a process.. knowing that I’ve survived this.. even w/ the flashbacks and weird things that I’ve been dealing with for the last couple weeks. Things like certain scents setting me off as if I’m remembering a smell from that night. That’s been hard to cope with. It makes me feel dirty all over again. But in the end I am surviving the best I can.

Today I went to the mall and hung out with my friend Vanessa. We were going to go see 2012 but it was sold out. So we walked around for a while, talked, got dinner, then shopped at Old Navy. Grr@them for closing while we’re shopping :p
We both got hoodies and I got fleece pants. I also got 2 nice shirts from JCPenney to wear to work. I have the pants on now. They are soo comfy. I love Old Navy. I get to wear the hoodie to work tomorrow and one of my new shirts. It’s fun getting new things. I can’t do that very often.

Can’t believe the weekend is over. I can’t believe next week is Thanksgiving. Wow.

This time one year ago I was whining and crying about my failing relationship. This time one year ago I was going insane dealing with the loud party that was going on for hours across the street. This time one year ago I had no idea my life was going to be turned so upside down. This time one year ago was just hours before the break in… the violation…. happened……

So glad the weekend is here. The work week was very busy. Dance class was great. But I’m very tired and glad I get 2 days to relax. I had a doctor appointment today but was a couple minutes late because I walked. So, it was rescheduled for Dec 4th. I went out to dinner at Outback Steakhouse all by myself tonight. I had a yummy meal. I stopped by Target to pick up a few things and now I’m here. I was downstairs for a while so thought I was gonna be too late to post so I’m rushing this entry. I really need to spend some time working on this site. So much I need to get done. None of it’s going to happen tonight.

I had stuff to blog about yet I forgot about. I came home from class feeling amazing because it was challenging yet fun. we danced in a circle and it was great. so much to say yet I feel distracted so I sorry I end this now!

Wednesday is done. Half way through the work week. Weekend is almost here. Do you have plans? I’m working on mine. I’m getting together with a friend on Sunday. I’m thinking about going to see 2012 on Friday. I have a doctor appointment Friday morning so I’m going into work late that day. I need to clean my room and do laundry. I started to feel feverish towards the end of the work day today. I feel ok now other than really tired. I just hope I’m not getting the massive amounts of flu going around the office. I can’t believe Thanksgiving is the week after next. I wish I was going home. I will hopefully get to go home for Christmas though.

2009 is flying by and that’s just fine with me.

I got my mid-term grade. I didn’t do very good because I had to miss half of it. But considering… what I was there for.. I only lost 1 point… My teacher told me that I’ve improved and she’s proud. That’s gotta count for something right?