So I guess it’s Christmas….. Merry Christmas or something….. I hope you’ve all had a nice day. It hasn’t felt like Christmas at all. Not doing anything of the traditional stuff this year has made me feel very numb today. No gifts under the tree to wake up to. No one to have Christmas dinner with. I haven’t even cooked anything. Why bother. The only thing I’ve done is watch A Christmas Story over and over. Otherwise it’s just a day off from work. Just another day….

***ranting..bitching..venting….***

I am so sick of hearing people bitch about having to Christmas shop…. having to fly to where ever to spend the holidays with family….bitching about having 23443343 places to visit on Christmas day…. having to cook for Christmas… blah fricken blah blah blah.

Do you even know how lucky you are? I have to spend it at home.. alone.. broke… ALONE.

Wanna trade?

Expect more not so happy posts to come this week probably… I am really having a hard time and it’s only going to get worse as the day comes closer.

Are you ready for it? Ok. Here goes.

I WANT A GIRLFRIEND!!!!

There. I said it. Do I feel better?

not really…

Here it is.. the holiday season. The time when loved ones spend time together. Trimming the tree, singing Christmas carols, fighting the crowds Christmas shopping…. Here I am alone…. twiddling my fingers and wondering when that Christmas feeling is going to hit. I’ve never spent a holiday season alone. I’d rather not. But.. the fates have decided that this year I get to do all of the above… ALONE.
Not happy about this… But I am trying… I’ve begun putting up my teeny tiny Christmas tree in my room… fixing the lights… topping the tree topper… all that is left to do is hanging the ornaments. I sure wish I had someone to hang them with me. The cats are great but… not so crafty in the tree trimming department…..

All I want for Christmas…. is you….. whoever and where ever you are….