To blog… Or not to blog…

That is the question!

Will you be participating? How do you gather up enough content to post about for an entire 30 days straight?

Oh and by the way…. Happy Halloween! =)

October? How the hell did you just show up like that? And you’re half way over? Silly silly October!
Is it me or is this year really flying by FAST? I used to think it flew by so fast because I was soooo busy with work and school. And then I lost my job and had to drop school for a bit. Time REALLY flew by then. How? It’s not like I had schedules to follow. Other than spending my allotted amount of time job hunting every day. Last year went by really fast. Not so much the first part of the year but it seems like as soon as I moved here, every single month sped by like weeks. And that was definitely the case this year. And then I got a job, and was back to following daily/weekly schedules. It’s like it was just June. And now it’s October. I’ve been at my job for 4 months. I have somewhat of a structure again. Granted, it fluctuates from week to week as most retail jobs tend to do. But I have a beginning, middle, and end to my days once again. My job is very stressful and fast paced, but at the end of the day, the accomplishments and productivity feel really good. I wish I had more hours, and more money, but I’m thankful for what I do have. And I cross my fingers hoping that the Holiday season will bring on more of both.

But enough about that. How are you? What’s new in your world? Are you excited for Autumn, Halloween, and the coming holidays? I am! I don’t have plans for Halloween specifically, but I am going to a Halloween party next weekend. I’m pretty excited about that. I don’t really get to do many fun things these days, so I was really happy to get the invite. I went yesterday to get my costume. Nope, not telling what it is! I had fun shopping for it, but I will admit, it always feels weird trying to prep for Halloween when it’s 90 degrees outside. These are the times when I really miss living in New York. The changing seasons, leaves changing and soon falling, Apple orchards, Pumpkin patches, crisp weather, and the general smell in the air. My emotions change as Autumn approaches too. I become happier, I feel lighter, and I don’t tend to worry as much. But when you live in a place where the climate is hot, humid, muggy and mayyyybbeee a little chilly at times, it sorta confuses the natural pattern of my yearly emotions. I still get that hint of excitement as September, the first BER month approaches, but then I feel confused because it’s just so hot. I hold on to the happy feeling though. I don’t worry so much about the fact that I’m lacking friends, lacking fun, lacking that puzzle piece that I miss. Instead I focus more on how the year has been, what I’ve accomplished, what I’m looking forward to, and the fact the fact that I’m not going to spend the holiday season alone because 1. I have family and 2. I do have friends. And especially 3. I have a job.
I don’t really have a point to this entry but just to say that while I deal with my own personal battles and demons, I do stop to appreciate the happy things. I’m excited to go to the party and wear my costume. I’ll happily indulge in candy and will most definitely be carving a pumpkin. Do you bake the seeds? I lovvveeee baked pumpkin seeds! I’ll pretend it’s chilly outside and if I close my eyes and just imagine… I can still smell that wonderful Autumn smell. Do you know the one I’m talking about? It’s a sense of clean… renewal…and rejuvenation. There’s nothing like it. If I feel rebellious enough I might even picture a bit of snow too.

And with all of that said, I think I’ll go have a cup of coffee with some yummy pumpkin spice creamer, and a slice of cake. Oh yes, it has Halloween sprinkles on it.

Oh and FYI? Still haven’t gotten the keyboard fixed yet. Doh!