That’s what this week is all about. GO GO GO GO GO GO GO! Very very very busy work week. It’s the week of Thanksgiving! Ayeeeeeeeee! I’m excited! Are you? I just have to get through tomorrow and Tuesday at work. I’m off Wednesday and Thanksgiving. And then busy busy busy Black Friday AHMAHGAH! Tomorrow is a short day at work so I have to really focus and get my markdowns done. And then I think I’ll treat myself to a churro. Yummy! Right now I’m enjoying being able to relax for a bit while sorta watching the AMA’s. Well, basically I’m listening and kinda watching. I remember when I used to watch every single awards show. My attention span has been so lacking lately. I’ve actually been wanting to start reading again. I need to start reading Dewey again. It’s not that it’s a boring book. I just have a hard time focusing my eyes for an extended amount of time. Do you like to read? What book would you recommend?

I am thankful #20, For the friendships I have and cherish very much.

My one day weekend is over! Just like that! Over way too soon! Ah well……. They tend to do that. I can’t even fathom the thought of 1. Going to bed in an hour and 2. Getting up before the sun tomorrow at 4:45Aam! I so enjoyed being able to go in at 8 all week. Oh well. I three days and then I’m off Wednesday and Thanksgiving. And then Black Friday insanity! Yay for getting extra hours though! I picked up a 5 hour energy shot for tomorrow. I know I’m going to need it. I spent my one day off being very lazy. I really need to get stuff done around my room. But….. I was a bit too content just laying around and watching tv all day. I did go and pick up a bunch of foods for Thanksgiving though. As well as a few extra things. Oh cheese in a can. You are evil evil evil yet oh so good!
It’s 9pm already and I’ve yet to eat dinner. Hum. I should work on that. Bye!

I am thankful #19, For having a job that allows me to be able to help out with things like Thanksgiving dinner!

Sexy! Yes. I said it. Most of my blogs are about boring mundane day to day things. But lately I’ve been thinking about myself. In terms of like… How I feel about myself. I put on a bit of weight when I moved back to Florida. I blame it on the lack of day to day commuting by foot. The way I used to do. But I also blame it on the fact that moving back here made me really depressed. But lately I’ve been looking at myself and thinking of ways to take care of myself again. One thing I’ve been lacking is self confidence. Feeling like I’m pretty and dare I say, sexy. Because as I put on this weight, I sure as hell didn’t and don’t feel sexy. The thought kinda turned me off. But as a 34 year old woman, I realize that I need to feel pretty AND sexy again.

I’ve recently started dating again. Now the type of dating I’m doing isn’t going to instantly result in sleeping with someone. I’m just not build that way. I’ve tried it and it just didn’t satisfy the person that I am. However, I would hope that if dating led to relationship, eventually I would want to take it further. But as long as I fight the demons within myself I just really have a hard time even thinking about that scenario. So, today I was browsing around on different websites and I started to think about different things that I can do to make myself feel pretty and sexy again. I wandered on to Eden Fantasys and began to browse around a bit. I got curious and clicked on their lingurie section. I thought to myself that there was no fricken way that they’d have a plus size section. I silently cringed at the fact that I even have to think about a plus size section. However, I was really stoked to see that they do! So I checked it out and was pretty happy to see that they actually had stuff that I’d actually wear. I never really was into that sort of thing, but as I continue this journey of exploring myself, and learning who I am inside and out, I am interested in the whole aspect of dressing sexy. Eden Fantasys has some really nice things that I would actually feel good about wearing. Even though I know that I need to work on getting myself back in shape, there is no reason why I should have to stall on feeling good about myself while I work on that. With Christmas right around the corner, I’ve set a few goals for myself. One is definitely working on that whole self confidence thing. Whether I’m in a relationship or not, I should WANT to feel pretty on the inside as well as the outside. Anywho, upon browsing, I found something that I really like and I’m thinking about purchasing. What do you think of this? I like it and I love glitter. I am a girl who is not afraid to wear glitter lol. It can be both fun and sexy! So…. I’m really considering purchasing it and perhaps wearing it one day. Just the thought makes me feel pretty AND sexy already I figure not only would it help me to feel pretty as well as sexy. But it would help boost my confidence so maybe I’d have the courage to maybe wear it and show it off for someone What do ya think? Merry Christmas to me? *wink*

And that only means one thing to me. I get to sleep in tomorrow. Yay! Otherwise? It’s Friday…. Ho hum…. I obviously don’t have any plans. But I’m attempting to enjoy just laying around, watching tv, and enjoying not having a thing I have to do. I do wish I could’ve had something a bit more fun lined up. Oh well. My turn will come again eventually. Tomorrow I’ll be going with my mom to pick up stuff for Thanksgiving. I want to get as much as possible now, and avoid crazy rushes and crowds. I will have to pick up a couple things the day before, but I’m not too worried. What are you doing for Thanksgiving? Are you staying home? Or, will you be traveling?
Have a wonderful weekend.

I am thankful #18, for tv. It’s keeping me entertained tonight. :\

I’m going to attempt to keep this entry as short as possible. But I felt like talking about some things on my mind. So I apologize if it’s a bit lengthy and rambly. With working in retail, I got to experience the coming holidays a lot quicker than someone who doesn’t (work in retail). I’ve had mixed feelings about this. At first I was thinking why on earth do we need to have our Christmas merch. out as early as the beginning of September? Why do people need to be reminded of the coming holiday season two months before Halloween? And then I was kinda excited. The kid in me was excited to see the types of trees and decorations we’d be selling. Then I sorta forgot about it and just continued on with my work. And then about the first week of November, they started playing Christmas music. Not back to back but it was most definitely there. Then I was like ok you have GOT to be kidding me! Of course and then the kid in me crept out again and was secretly so thrilled to hear “Rudolph the Red-nosed Reindeer” and “The 12 Days of Christmas”. I can recite all 12 days, Can you?

As I got adjusted to the holiday season:retail edition, I would converse with people around me. Some don’t really care or notice. Some are excited and were anxious to deck the halls as soon as the Halloween spooks had all gone away. Then you have the ones who are sooooo bah humbug and can’t wait until December 26th. After a conversation at lunch today it got me to think about things. The Holiday season. What Christmas means to me, and what it might mean to others. For me, it’s not really religious. I enjoy the general feeling of the holidays. I like putting up a Christmas tree, setting up lights on the house, baking Christmas cookies while singing along to Burl Ives, Holly Jolly Christmas. I still watch A Charlie Brown Christmas, Rudolph, Frosty, and most definitely A Christmas Story marathon! I can NOT leave out The Polar Express *grin*. I enjoy all of this stuff. I even enjoy going Christmas shopping! But you know what? I don’t let holiday “stress” get to me. I never do! Why? Because I can happily appreciate the non-monetary side of the holidays. I don’t sit there fretting about how I’m going to shop for this person, and that person, and those people as well. I prefer to think out a truly thoughtful gift that isn’t going to leave me broke and hungry later on. Sure, I wish I could do more. But if you do nothing but spend your time worrying about spending x amount of dollars on this and that, then you are never going to be able to enjoy the holidays for what it is.
Stop worrying so much about buying the most expensive TV or iPhone. Take the time to truly appreciate those people that you are frivolously shopping for. This holiday season, take time to really think about the good things you have in your life. And as time gets closer, instead of rushing to buy a gift, take your loved one, kids, family, whoever, out and enjoy the Christmas lights! I’m sure that even the town you live in has some really nice scenes set up for you to partake in. Fix up a thermos of hot chocolate, don’t forget the freshly baked Christmas cookies. Hey, I’ll even let you cheat and pick some up at your local bakery! Turn on the radio and listen to a Christmas song. Stop freaking out SO much and step back. Or you might just miss your very own Christmas memory.
What is your favorite Christmas song? If you really do dislike the songs and/or tv programs. It’s ok! Share a favorite Christmas memory instead!

I am thankful #17, For finally having the ability within me to enjoy the simpler things. Even if it is a Christmas song!

I went to work today wondering if it was going to be a crazy insane day. And thankfully it wasn’t too bad. We were having our really big sale, so the store opened up at 7am. It was weird going to work after the store was open when I’m usually there hours before it does. Thankfully most of the customers were in pretty good moods so while the day was really busy, it went by rather quickly. It’ll be interesting to see how things go on Black Friday.

After work I got some lunch and sat with some co-workers for a bit. I had a few minutes before I had to walk to the bus station so I sat for a while. The Salvation Army is hosting the Angel Tree at the mall. I participated a few years ago and had been thinking about doing it again. So, before I left for the day I picked a child to “adopt”. I wish I could do more but at least one child is going to have a present to open up on Christmas morning

I still can’t believe Thanksgiving is next weekend. But I’m glad!

I am thankful #16, For good days and positive moods.

Well looky there. I’ve made it to the half way point for NaBloPoMo! I hope I haven’t been boring you too much with my daily posts! The question is, will I keep it up after this is done? We’ll see. I really don’t have enough to talk about on a daily basis. But I should try to make an effort to keep things active here. I remember when I used to blog back on fiesty-kitty. I talked about EVERYTHING. Even things I didn’t really need to be sharing. Nowadays I’m a lot more aware of what I’m sharing on the internet. If I didn’t care about censoring and filtering, I’d probably have all sorts of things to blog about. But as I get older I don’t really feel the need or desire to share every single thing. If I feel random, that’s what Twitter is for. I tend to want to blog more when I have really good, or really exciting things going on. I don’t think it’s necessary to tell you about what I had for dinner, or what I’m watching on tv. Again, that’s what Twitter is for! Kidding….. What do YOU blog about? What do you NOT blog about? Should I keep blogging when November comes to an end? Have I put you to sleep yet?

I am thankful #15, For random phone calls and knowing that someone is thinking about me. And probably thinking about me right this very second.

Here we are, at the beginning of yet another week. Mondays are usually so chaotic…manic…. But today wasn’t really like that. I worked from 8-1 and the day floated right on by. We’re getting ready for sales, sales, and more sales. I cannot believe that next week is Thanksgiving. HA and as I type out this entry, a commercial for my workplace comes on tv. Black Friday is going to be interesting. It will be the first one I work ever. I think. I’ve worked retail before but I don’t think I’ve ever really worked retail on Black Friday, or any job on Black Friday for that matter. I usually try to do some sort of shopping on that day. This year I’ll be working all day long both Black Friday and the day after. Our store opens up at midnight. Will you be participating in any Black Friday shopping?

Anyway, the day went by pretty fast. After work I grabbed a quick lunch and headed home. I’m now watching Matilda and waiting for my guacamole to chill a bit so that I can have a snack. I colored my hair a bit ago and I’m hoping it looks ok. I’m off work tomorrow, so I’ll probably stay up late and sleep in a bit. But I’m going to attempt to be productive as well. We shall see how that goes.

I am thankful #14, For slowly but surely, getting extra hours at work. Even though they aren’t making an appearance this week. They are when I really need them.

After working a few busy days, it was nice to have a day off. I didn’t do anything fun. I stayed up late last night watching movies. I slept until around 10:30 but then fell back asleep until a bit after noon. I woke up with a headache behind my blind eye. So I took a long hot shower and got myself dressed for the day. I had nothing planned for today. So I spent most of the day just laying around and watching tv. I went to the store with my mother to get groceries for the week. I picked up some more hair dye. The last few times I’ve colored my hair, I’ve managed to over color the top and the bottom never got enough attention. So I want to redo it and try to focus more on the back and ends and not so much on the top. I colored it two weeks ago. I wonder if it would be too soon to give it another try? Those of you who do color your hair yourselves, do you color it the same day as you shampoo it? Or do you wait a day? I normally wait a day but I’m kinda wondering if it would hurt to color it tonight anyway. Maybe I’ll wait until tomorrow night anyway. Decisions, decisions. Anywho, I fixed dinner tonight. Nothing special. Just spaghetti. But instead of using hamburger, I used chicken. And topped it with mozzarella. I picked up a couple avocados so that I can make some fresh guacamole. I’m looking forward to that! I guess tonight I’ll watch some episodes of Criminal Minds, and maybe a movie. I hope you had a fun and relaxing weekend!

I am thankful #13, For getting to go into work two hours later this week. Yay for extra sleep!

I had an entire entry typed up and then I deleted it. I’m sorta having a rough day today and I really don’t think I should put it all out there on here. Maybe later. But for now, I just need to get through the night. I have some personal demons and unpleasant reminders of things that happened three years ago. It’s random that it’s affecting me this much now, when I didn’t let it a year or even two years ago. But, for whatever reason, the flashbacks and feelings are sorta… making me want to forget it all over again. We’ll be back to your regularly scheduled blog entries…tomorrow.

I am thankful #12, I’m overcoming, yet again.