As I was turning 30, I had a few little bucket list type goals I wanted to complete. One of those goals, and it’s weird to word it that way, it was more like a gift to myself as I began a new “number-something” as in, I was hitting my “thirty-somethings”. I was going to go and get myself my very first tattoo. But as plans for other things were crumbling one by one, so did the bravery I had mustered up to get myself inked. It’s not that I’m afraid of the actual act of getting a tattoo, but it’s more like, the pain, which my low pain tolerance self, doesn’t really like the idea of. But this became that and it just never happened.

Well, way before this time tomorrow, I shall finally have gone through a new little milestone in life and finally, yes I say the word again, finally, will have gotten my first tattoo. One of my co-workers at work (um, duh? as opposed to a co-worker at what?) is married to a guy who is a tattoo artist. I’ve been thinking about going to him for a few months now and it’s going to happen. I have a few ideas for designs, and the location where I want it to go. But tomorrow I’m first, and foremost, going over to their house to sit down and look at designs, and talk about the whole thing. But I’m also ready if I do decide to get it done. But I already told my co-worker, P, that if I muster the bravery to go over, I’m probably not leaving w/o the ink. I’m sure for some, it seems silly to be hyping myself up so much, but I guess you’d have to really know me. But, I’m really excited about this! Soon I’ll be an Inked Kitteh *grin!*

And Humans, occasionally, get sick. SHOCKER! I know, right? Sure shocked the hell out of me. Although living in Florida has not been fun. The weather sucks. The heat is unbearable. The living conditions can be a bit challenging. I will say that aside from my usual daily aches, issues, allergies, etc… I haven’t really gotten sick since moving here. Not to the point where tissues, and cold meds are my BFFs. I was surprised that with working in retail, I wasn’t catching every little bug that came through the doors. But, my luck finally ran out. There’s been a bug floating through the store for a while now and it decided to pay me a visit. It had really good timing too. See, I had these really awesome plans for this weekend, and the bug decided to land right in the midst of these plans. Cool, right? I thought so too. I went out on Friday night,ate yummy food, had yummy drinks,talked/laughed lots, and felt fine. I went through Saturday feeling great. And then I took a swallow. And it hit. That first pang. The first hint that a sore throat is on its way. I have been feeling a bit off for a few weeks, but as usual, this came out of no where and before I knew it, I was down. I went to sleep a bit early Saturday night so that I could be rested for my Sunday plans. Oh, and to counter the damn lost hour. Thanks SPRING! *eyeroll* We were going to the Strawberry Festival and I wanted to feel good so that I could enjoy lots of walking outside, the sights, the sounds, the food, the strawberries!!! But I woke up Sunday morning feeling the general CRUD you feel when you get a really bad cold. Oh well. I sucked it up and went on with the day. I had a wonderful time, but the sore throat and grog took over by mid day and I felt horrible for a while. I still made the best of it and was sooooo glad to see some friends I hadn’t seen in at least 15 years. It was worth the absolute HELL feeling I woke up to Monday morning. Now we’re into Wednesday and I’m on the mend. My nose is a faucet and my throat is a fiery coughy mess, but eh, I’ve definitely had worse cases of the ick. It’s more of an annoyance than anything else. But I’m off tomorrow. So I’ll be medicating, keeping hydrated, and resting LOTS while I finish reading The Hunger Games. Anyone else stoked to see the movie? I’m sad I’ll have to see the movie alone, but I’m definitely NOT missing it! Now I must go blow my nose AGAIN. Fun times! *smirk*

So much for thinking that I might actually blog more often. I guess it’s been a while. No real reason for the lack of entries. I’ve just been a bit too busy with other things. And then there was this whole being without internet thing for a bit. But I’m back now and I will try to post more often. Wow I just saw an Easter commercial. Is it really almost time for Easter already? 2012 is going by fast already. It seems like the years do that as we get older. Between following schedules at work, and following day to day routines, by the time we get a moment to stop and see what day it is, a month has already flown right by. My thoughts lately have been on vacation, and where I want to go. I have 6 days saved up. I’ll have another 5 or 6 built up by the time I get ready to go on at least one vacation. I’m checking flights for a trip to Maryland for a week, and I’m also thinking about going up to New York for a week as well. I want to go see my step mom, step brothers, and some friends. I’m hoping I can go the first week of August so that I can go to the track. I’m definitely going to do SOMETHING. My idea of a week of vacation is NOT sitting at home in my room. No thanks! I’d love to go back to California, but I know if I went, I’d sure as hell never want to leave. I really don’t have anyone to visit there anyway. So I’m really not focusing too much time on that thought. I think if I go to Maryland, I’ll go in October or the beginning of November. I want to go in January. Fiscal year ends mid January. We have inventory for the first two weeks. So I’d have to squeeze it in between all of that. I’d like to go when I might have a shot at seeing snow. Oh, decisions… If you had the chance to go on vacation somewhere, where would you go? For now I’m going to go back to watching The Lion King! And try not to think about my work day tomorrow. Which I am so very much dreading… Oh stress….. Perhaps I need to plan a vacation a few months sooner

Inventory is finally done. And I couldn’t be happier. Ironically as soon as I started getting used to working all night long, and pretty much sleeping all day, it was time to switch it back up to waking up at 4:45AM and working all day, and hoping to sleep all night. I am so glad I don’t have a regular graveyard shift. While it was sometimes fun, it wasn’t THAT fun. And it doesn’t matter how long you sleep during the day, it is just not the same. My room wasn’t dark enough and my internal clock kept clashing with my tired body because it was like 9am and there I was trying to fall asleep. Once I fell asleep it was really hard to wake up for the day. But it’s over and life is going back to normal. Well…whatever normal is.

The weekend is almost here. Any plans? My weekend would’ve been tomorrow and Saturday, but my brilliant self asked to come in for a few hours tomorrow. So I’ll only have Saturday off. Oh well. I want to finish my weekly workload and the thought of a few extra dollars is really nice. I do wish I was off on Sunday though. Thankfully I’m finally starting to make plans with friends though! So I’m looking forward to FINALLY hanging out with my friend Ashley on Saturday. Then I’ll be grabbing lunch with my friend Amy sometime next week. Also making plans to go to the State fair and maybe the local County fair too. We shall see!

Tomorrow as soon as I am done with my short work day I’m going to upgrade my phone. Woohoo! I’ll never be cool enough to own an iPhone but I do get to be cool enough to own an Android once again heh. I’m so ready to be rid of the really cheap phone I got when I first switched cell providers. And the company I’m with is running a nice promo right now so…. a little reward for the insane hours I’ve been working, and the fact that I was patient and waited for a better bargain, I’m getting a new phone. Yay for that! And then I think I’ll treat myself to lunch somewhere. Not sure where yet. I don’t want to stick with the food court, but knowing how I’ll probably not want to walk anyway…. that’ll probably be what I choose. Oh well. I’m going to have a good day and a great weekend!

Oh! Guess what I get to do at work next week? I get to break stuff AND get paid for it! Are you curious? hehehe!!

And here we go with a brand new year. Happy New Year everyone! And with the start of a new year, is a new layout, and a secured mzkitteh.net for one more year! How has 2012 been treating you so far? Did you go out last night? I went to my sister in law’s sister’s house. It was fun sitting out by the fire, drinking yummy drinks, and roasting marshmallows. I didn’t have anyone to kiss but I also didn’t wake up with a hangover this morning. Yeah! I didn’t really drink that much anyway. But since I don’t drink hard liquor much anymore I’m never sure how it’s going to hit me. But I was fun and I had a nice time. I hope you all did too!
Do you make new year’s resolutions?

And this begins the blog where I type about anything I want to because I feel very chatty…and random! And nothing good ever comes of the randomness, right? I caught myself being a bit too twitter chatty because I’m simply feeling that… chatty. I have no one to talk about nonsense and randomness to, so I guess I’ll talk to myself here. How ya doin’, Kitteh? No, I’m not going to be that specific (or lame) Ugh.

Anywho. I’m on day one of two days off, and it’s leaving me a bit… anxious. Not bad anxious just… anxious. I want to DO something. New Years Eve is almost here and I have no plans. I don’t know if I have to work on New Years Day, yet. But even if I do I still want some epic plans. I surely won’t have anyone to kiss at midnight. *eyeroll* but just because I’m a constant fail when it comes to the dating scene, doesn’t mean I want to sit alone in my room, being a loser. Nope. No thank you!

I know we all say it every year. Next year will be better, it’ll be different, it’ll be GOOD. And I’m going to have the same mentality again. I want it to be different…better… etc. I want to continue working on myself, inside out, all that jazz. I am started to do that now, I guess. I’m trying to be less lazy and get myself to be more active again. Guess what I got? Just Dance 3! I’ve missed dancing sooooo much. And while it’s not quite the same as my dance class days, it’s still fun and it definitely gets the heart rate up. I’m not gonna lie though. I kinda wish I had an Xbox 360 w/ Kinect so I could dance without having to hold onto something. BUT I’m definitely NOT complaining! I’ve had a blast dancing to a few of the songs, and attempting to memorize the steps so I can get better. I’ll be doing the 7 day challenge as well. AND I’m going to work on getting healthy food back into the house, tracking calories, and everything. I don’t want to be a fat girl anyone. I want to feel beautiful again! And this time, I truly want it for my self, FIRST.

Ok. I’m all talked out finally. Back to watching The Polar Express… Yes. Again. I’m that awesome

I just wanted to stop by and wish everyone a very Merry Christmas! I know, Christmas will be over in less than two hours. But it’s officially STILL Christmas! I hope you had a nice day. Mine was good. Back to work tomorrow, and then I get two more days off! I’m watching National Lampoons Christmas Vacation right now and getting ready to fall asleep soon. I drank some champagne and while it didn’t make me buzzed or drunk. That would be stupid when I have to be up so early tomorrow. It made me very sleepy. So, expect another obligatory “what did you get?” type post tomorrow. And to all a good night

It’s 10pm and I’m still in shock that it’s Christmas Eve. It surely doesn’t feel like it. The only thing that feels right is 24 hours of A Christmas Story marathon, which is currently on my tv and will stay on it until we leave for dinner with family tomorrow afternoon. Otherwise…. it just doesn’t feel like it. I got a late start with my shopping this year. Late start with next to no money. I wish I could’ve done more but….everyone will have something to open. That’s all that matters. I’ll be so glad when things get back to “normal” at work. One more week of possible holiday craziness. And then the first week of January starts off inventory. 3 days straight of working overnight, 9pm-3am, and then things should slow down a bit. And then I can get back to focusing on finding a second job. 2012…. Has got to be the year of good things to come. Well, enough of this. Back to the movie!

For the past two-three years, I’ve had back problems. At first it was mainly my lumbar area. And I was on pain medications to help manage it because it would get so bad. I was also getting MRI’s done to see how severe it was. I was attempting to keep it to a manageable level so that I could still work and do physical activities without being in too much pain. Hip hop class actually helped with it. There were times when I knew I over did it, but for the most part it helped keep my muscles busy and as healthy as possible. And then I moved here. I no longer had doctors to help and keep me on a pain regimen. I couldn’t afford to go to a doctor since I didn’t have insurance. So I just dealt with it. And then I noticed issues revolving around sciatica. Nothing like walking and suddenly having a sharp pinching pain shoot from your bum to back of the leg. There’s days when I avoid walking or standing as long as I have to. Between the sciatica and lumbar issues I start to feel older than my actual age. If I sit down at work it takes me a bit to straighten up because I’m locked in a certain position. But still, I deal with it. I have insurance now so I’ve been researching doctors, but still not worrying too much because the idea of having to get to know a new doctor makes me really nervous. I really liked my doctors in San Diego. I had a good relationship with them. I didn’t have to worry about trying to explain everything because they just knew. I was comfortable. Anyway, I think it’s getting to be time for me to suck it up and get acquainted with a doctor. I’ve noticed that things seem to be getting worse today. I’d be working and the pain would shoot to like… the middle of my bum and cause a really rapid muscle spasm. I had a hard time walking today because of that. I kept trying to walk normal even when the weird spasms would happen. I didn’t want customers to look at me and wonder WTF was going on. And then I had to walk a little bit extra because my bus driver had to take a detour to get to my stop.
I was so glad to come home and just lay down. I’m off for the next two days so hopefully I can take advantage of the time and rest my body. But I don’t want to be confined to the couch the entire time either. Another thing I’ve noticed it the side of my leg goes numb. I freaked a bit the other day when I went to touch it for whatever reason, and it was totally numb all up one side. It was such a WEIRD feeling. I don’t know if it was just a weird fluke, or if it’s associated with everything else…I just hate these pains, and the new ones I’m experiencing. I kinda wish I knew someone who goes through this so I could get some advice. Yes, I obviously need to see a doctor. But I’d also just like to talk to someone I know. I used to know someone who went through it. I remember how painful it was for them. At the time I just tried to understand, but nowadays I definitely DO understand. I do different stretching exercises when I can but I think I need more than that. Not that I want to have to go back to relying on pain meds, but if it helps me get around then I may have to take a little bit of help in that direction. I have a really LOW pain tolerance. But I’ve learned to take on a LOT since moving here, and not having the meds. to help me. I just need to suck it up and go to a doctor. What’s the point of having insurance if I don’t use it?

Well here we are. Sunday afternoon. Exactly one week until Christmas. And I can say without a doubt, I am feeling very…neutral. I’m not excited. Nothing major is going to be happening. I’m pretty sure I won’t be getting the one thing I wanted this year. And it’s definitely something that can’t be wrapped. Maybe next year. Every year it’s the same thing. Maybe next year will be different. Maybe things will be better. Maybe this, or maybe that. Oh well. Meanwhile, I’m relaxing while watching The Polar Express and trying to clear my mind. Way too many thoughts running around up there. And I’m pretty bummed because I wasn’t able to renew F-K or the hosting. I probably wouldn’t have been able to until sometime next month. I’m not even sure if I can access my files or account to try to attempt to secure it a bit longer. I just can’t worry about it. And it’s probably for the best. But, having to let it go does make me a little sad. I’ll definitely renew this domain in a couple weeks. It’s a lot more affordable than trying to secure F-K AND the hosting for it. It is what it is. And now that I’ve gotten distracted and need to start dinner… This entry ends… Now. Buhbye!